Choices

Isn't life just full of choices? Some effecting just ourselves but most of the time it effects everyone we love... If we make a choice that everyone agrees with and is the best decision then everything is wonderful but what if we make the choice that we regret or wish we could do over? Life can't be redone or washed away like it doesn't matter... All we can so its pray and put all of our faith in Gods strong and beautiful hands!

Journey...

Where do I start? Life is changing minute by minute hour by hour and day by day...Where does all the time go? We contiously are making efforts to spend the time with the people we love the most so we don't have regrets but is it ever enough time? I really don't think we can quite spend enough time and be satisfied. Will never be enough? With our busy schedules and things in life pulling us here and there we get so caught up and before we know it we haven't seen that special Mother, Father, Grandmother, Grandfather, or friend and I am not sure if any of us really mean for this to happen, but it does.. Time really slips through our fingers like sand in an hourglass! It is just a little over a week ago that I put my 15 yr old German Shepard down and I thought that knowing she was sick would prepare me to take it like a strong trooper, but It didn't really happen that way in fact I found myself missing her every day, like getting up in the middle of the night to find myself stepping over a dog that was not there, calling her name to go outside, I know in this case time is the only thing that makes it better!

Changes...

So many changes with my new promotion as a EMR Implementation Specialist which I am fully enjoying. I am learning so many things and so excited to experience the growth within myself and my company. Things definately are different working in the clinic as a Medical Assistant for 11 1/2 years and knowing exactly what I am doing to having alot more responsibilities and learning a completely new position. It's a definate WOW! I never thought I would be doing something completely new and challenging all in one I can say I REALLY LOVE WHAT I DO! I just came back from a 4 day trip to Georgia and what a trip Malfunction after Malfunction, now I can laugh but at the time a little frustrating. It first started with my memory malfunctioning and getting the departure time incorrect and costing me a little fee, to car rental issue to my cell phone deciding to turn off in the middle of Atlanta. GA freeway in the process of navigating us the the hotel!!! GOOD TIMING I have to say for sure :) All of that really doesn't matter in the end the only thing that I am grateful for is that I made it safely home and the other stuff can just be stuff that is in the past! Like they say don't sweat the SMALL stuff right?

Time to Breathe....

In Georgia on a business trip and what a beautiful state it is! The people here are so polite I would love to live in the south with all of the hospitality ! Yes maam's its just so polite. Well everything else is moving along at the school, its been a tad bit tough day by day up and down and all around !

WAVES

I am not keeping up with my blog as I would like, I tend to forget, so hey I remembered today and decided to write a little somethin... I really have a time with different people life that come and go, not because they don't have a choice but mainly because they DO mostly referring to my step daughter I just don't get why people feel they can treat others as they want dismissing them as if they were a child in a classroom! I think at some point I need to guard my heart and set some boundries! It's not ok to treat others as if they don't matter, and face it if we do matter then at least tell us that! I can honestly say I am not that way and I guess that is why I am so bothered by it! I dont like being ignored, dismissed or whatever you want to call it! It is such a rude way to be and with the life I have lived so far I feel like it is wrong. Tomorrow may never come, I didn't think when I left so many years ago that I would find out my Dad had 3 months to live I just didn't think that way but now I DO! I know not everyone shares my passion but think about it LOVE like there is no TOMORROW, LIVE like its HEAVEN on earth BREATH like its your LAST! I am not trying to be morbid but just truthful I guess and sharing a little somthing I needed to get off of my chest... LOVE to ALL and GOD BLESS

Continuing DaY bY dAy, with FaiTH...

Well this weekend wasn't as restful as I would of liked it to be... My Grandpa is back into the hospital after feeling that "gut feeling" of something is wrong again! Glad I went with my feelings because he is now back in the hospital ICU and getting more blood transfusions and they will be able to figure out where this infection is now! I said I felt it was somewhat of a roller coaster and yes I will stick with that for sure! I guess the upside to that is... the times when he is better gives us time to get a little bit stronger and get somewhat of a break!
I don't like to be negative I like to try even if hard to stay more on the positive side, there is always a situation that is worse than the one we are going through even if we would like to break down and lose it from time to time that's not a bad thing we just need to always remember to get back up and find strength in ourselves which is a true gift from our GOD! I couldn't do this without him, I know this because when I lost my Dad I didn't have the Lord and me being here is a pure miracle! I won't do this without MY GOD I need him and his wonderful Glory to get me through everyday!!! THANK YOU GOD for loving ME!!!

DaY By DaY

Well, what hasn't happened? Actually alot hasn't happened that could have and the things I am thankful for are so so many! My Grandpa whom I love so dearly has had such a rough couple of months starting from a urinary tract infection to kidney failure, heart failure, heart attack, blood transfusions and on and on! You know I am so grateful everyday for everyone in my life, there are so many people whom I love and love me back people I share so much with moments that take your breath away. These are the things in life we sometimes take for granted and don't realize until it is too late! My dad who lost his battle to cancer at age 40 for which I had so many regrets wanted more time and rightfully so 40 is such a young age to lose your life, right? I can look at my life with my Grandparents and say I don't regret anything! I LOVE them they clearly know that I tell them every chance I get, and I spend as much time as I can with them as well. We don't know when the last day here on earth will be, but I sure want to have given all of my love to everyone that is important to me! I can't describe the feeling I get when I look at my Grandpa and he gives me that wink or he says HI SUGAR or HI BABE I absolutely melt, and the KISS and HUGS there is so much LOVE I feel from him that makes me HAPPY and walk away with a SMILE on my face! I don't want to say GOODBYE but... we all have to sometime and I guess if there are no regrets and lots of memories to treasure for a LIFETIME....... I will learn to be content with that!