WAVES

I am not keeping up with my blog as I would like, I tend to forget, so hey I remembered today and decided to write a little somethin... I really have a time with different people life that come and go, not because they don't have a choice but mainly because they DO mostly referring to my step daughter I just don't get why people feel they can treat others as they want dismissing them as if they were a child in a classroom! I think at some point I need to guard my heart and set some boundries! It's not ok to treat others as if they don't matter, and face it if we do matter then at least tell us that! I can honestly say I am not that way and I guess that is why I am so bothered by it! I dont like being ignored, dismissed or whatever you want to call it! It is such a rude way to be and with the life I have lived so far I feel like it is wrong. Tomorrow may never come, I didn't think when I left so many years ago that I would find out my Dad had 3 months to live I just didn't think that way but now I DO! I know not everyone shares my passion but think about it LOVE like there is no TOMORROW, LIVE like its HEAVEN on earth BREATH like its your LAST! I am not trying to be morbid but just truthful I guess and sharing a little somthing I needed to get off of my chest... LOVE to ALL and GOD BLESS

Continuing DaY bY dAy, with FaiTH...

Well this weekend wasn't as restful as I would of liked it to be... My Grandpa is back into the hospital after feeling that "gut feeling" of something is wrong again! Glad I went with my feelings because he is now back in the hospital ICU and getting more blood transfusions and they will be able to figure out where this infection is now! I said I felt it was somewhat of a roller coaster and yes I will stick with that for sure! I guess the upside to that is... the times when he is better gives us time to get a little bit stronger and get somewhat of a break!
I don't like to be negative I like to try even if hard to stay more on the positive side, there is always a situation that is worse than the one we are going through even if we would like to break down and lose it from time to time that's not a bad thing we just need to always remember to get back up and find strength in ourselves which is a true gift from our GOD! I couldn't do this without him, I know this because when I lost my Dad I didn't have the Lord and me being here is a pure miracle! I won't do this without MY GOD I need him and his wonderful Glory to get me through everyday!!! THANK YOU GOD for loving ME!!!

DaY By DaY

Well, what hasn't happened? Actually alot hasn't happened that could have and the things I am thankful for are so so many! My Grandpa whom I love so dearly has had such a rough couple of months starting from a urinary tract infection to kidney failure, heart failure, heart attack, blood transfusions and on and on! You know I am so grateful everyday for everyone in my life, there are so many people whom I love and love me back people I share so much with moments that take your breath away. These are the things in life we sometimes take for granted and don't realize until it is too late! My dad who lost his battle to cancer at age 40 for which I had so many regrets wanted more time and rightfully so 40 is such a young age to lose your life, right? I can look at my life with my Grandparents and say I don't regret anything! I LOVE them they clearly know that I tell them every chance I get, and I spend as much time as I can with them as well. We don't know when the last day here on earth will be, but I sure want to have given all of my love to everyone that is important to me! I can't describe the feeling I get when I look at my Grandpa and he gives me that wink or he says HI SUGAR or HI BABE I absolutely melt, and the KISS and HUGS there is so much LOVE I feel from him that makes me HAPPY and walk away with a SMILE on my face! I don't want to say GOODBYE but... we all have to sometime and I guess if there are no regrets and lots of memories to treasure for a LIFETIME....... I will learn to be content with that!

Grrrrr...

Well a day it was...it started good I wasn't late like the other day, work was going well until lunchtime. I was chatting with my bestfriend nicky and long sad story made short she is on the phone and discovers that her dog was killed by another dog in there yard it was so hard to be on the phone and hear your best friend crying, and going through this all alone I felt helpless wanting so bad to be her shoulder. I lost our dog last year but not like this.... I can't imagine. Tomorrow is spokane day getting ready for grandpas surgery ,so much too much

Ahhhhh.........

I am so happy to be relaxing in the Mountains on this wonderful scrapbooking retreat!!! It was a beautiful drive up here with so many leaves changing colors and all of the beauty from God's creations, it is so breath taking, the most wonderful Praise I have is Alissa texted me and then was going to call but I wouldn't have reception, so I have found out that she called her Dad which was a total God sent present! It is hard at times to trust that things will keep going in a positive direction, but I will put all of my TRUST in the LORD because I am so small and he is not! This is not my job, not to worry not to disbelieve it is his job so BIG but yet so small for him!!! We just need to believe in him and give it all, which I AM!!!! I am so grateful for all of the things he has blessed me with and that means good and bad things the bad is not so fun but sometimes those are lessons that we learn from the Wise Wise Man!!!!! I am pretty sure he know's just what he is doing, and why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello, again

Well I am back... today was an ok day busy at work which I can appreciate, sure makes the day go by faster. I went and got a haircut which is always what any woman needs, It's a feel good moment for sure....now I am relaxing in my comfy bed. Ohhhhh yeah.... nothing really to share I'm kinda boring which I don't mind I will be plenty busy here soon .... goodnight sweetdreams and GOD BLESS

Journey's

Well, life is sure interesting at that... I am not really sure where to start I haven't been keeping up with blogging because I wasn't sure how to find it again, well... I did with the help of my Auntie T! This past year has sure been the roller coaster and still going.. I had my step-daughter Alissa here for her senior year and was so sad to see her go back to New Jersey, it just kinda got worse from there well.. in a nut shell.. she left she got mad cut us out of her life along with all of the McGuire family well.. the majority anyway, and now is living her adult life and trying to figure out the in's and out's I guess! Teenagers I think feel they need to explore, you just don't want the exploring to be a negative one! Well she will learn and find her own way one day - I pray!!!!!

I am getting ready to go up to the palouse divide lodge and go scrapbooking for the weekend and soooo excited!!! Then when I get back I will leave and take my grandparents to Spokane Wednesday for my Grandpa is having surgery on Thursday so please keep him in your PRAYERS!!! I also need to just make it without being too stressed out I tend to try and carry things around I have no business carrying in the first place, that is GOD's job not mine! I will sign in again and sooner rather than later so I will get the hang of this blog stuff!!!