Continuing DaY bY dAy, with FaiTH...

Well this weekend wasn't as restful as I would of liked it to be... My Grandpa is back into the hospital after feeling that "gut feeling" of something is wrong again! Glad I went with my feelings because he is now back in the hospital ICU and getting more blood transfusions and they will be able to figure out where this infection is now! I said I felt it was somewhat of a roller coaster and yes I will stick with that for sure! I guess the upside to that is... the times when he is better gives us time to get a little bit stronger and get somewhat of a break!
I don't like to be negative I like to try even if hard to stay more on the positive side, there is always a situation that is worse than the one we are going through even if we would like to break down and lose it from time to time that's not a bad thing we just need to always remember to get back up and find strength in ourselves which is a true gift from our GOD! I couldn't do this without him, I know this because when I lost my Dad I didn't have the Lord and me being here is a pure miracle! I won't do this without MY GOD I need him and his wonderful Glory to get me through everyday!!! THANK YOU GOD for loving ME!!!

DaY By DaY

Well, what hasn't happened? Actually alot hasn't happened that could have and the things I am thankful for are so so many! My Grandpa whom I love so dearly has had such a rough couple of months starting from a urinary tract infection to kidney failure, heart failure, heart attack, blood transfusions and on and on! You know I am so grateful everyday for everyone in my life, there are so many people whom I love and love me back people I share so much with moments that take your breath away. These are the things in life we sometimes take for granted and don't realize until it is too late! My dad who lost his battle to cancer at age 40 for which I had so many regrets wanted more time and rightfully so 40 is such a young age to lose your life, right? I can look at my life with my Grandparents and say I don't regret anything! I LOVE them they clearly know that I tell them every chance I get, and I spend as much time as I can with them as well. We don't know when the last day here on earth will be, but I sure want to have given all of my love to everyone that is important to me! I can't describe the feeling I get when I look at my Grandpa and he gives me that wink or he says HI SUGAR or HI BABE I absolutely melt, and the KISS and HUGS there is so much LOVE I feel from him that makes me HAPPY and walk away with a SMILE on my face! I don't want to say GOODBYE but... we all have to sometime and I guess if there are no regrets and lots of memories to treasure for a LIFETIME....... I will learn to be content with that!

Grrrrr...

Well a day it was...it started good I wasn't late like the other day, work was going well until lunchtime. I was chatting with my bestfriend nicky and long sad story made short she is on the phone and discovers that her dog was killed by another dog in there yard it was so hard to be on the phone and hear your best friend crying, and going through this all alone I felt helpless wanting so bad to be her shoulder. I lost our dog last year but not like this.... I can't imagine. Tomorrow is spokane day getting ready for grandpas surgery ,so much too much

Ahhhhh.........

I am so happy to be relaxing in the Mountains on this wonderful scrapbooking retreat!!! It was a beautiful drive up here with so many leaves changing colors and all of the beauty from God's creations, it is so breath taking, the most wonderful Praise I have is Alissa texted me and then was going to call but I wouldn't have reception, so I have found out that she called her Dad which was a total God sent present! It is hard at times to trust that things will keep going in a positive direction, but I will put all of my TRUST in the LORD because I am so small and he is not! This is not my job, not to worry not to disbelieve it is his job so BIG but yet so small for him!!! We just need to believe in him and give it all, which I AM!!!! I am so grateful for all of the things he has blessed me with and that means good and bad things the bad is not so fun but sometimes those are lessons that we learn from the Wise Wise Man!!!!! I am pretty sure he know's just what he is doing, and why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello, again

Well I am back... today was an ok day busy at work which I can appreciate, sure makes the day go by faster. I went and got a haircut which is always what any woman needs, It's a feel good moment for sure....now I am relaxing in my comfy bed. Ohhhhh yeah.... nothing really to share I'm kinda boring which I don't mind I will be plenty busy here soon .... goodnight sweetdreams and GOD BLESS

Journey's

Well, life is sure interesting at that... I am not really sure where to start I haven't been keeping up with blogging because I wasn't sure how to find it again, well... I did with the help of my Auntie T! This past year has sure been the roller coaster and still going.. I had my step-daughter Alissa here for her senior year and was so sad to see her go back to New Jersey, it just kinda got worse from there well.. in a nut shell.. she left she got mad cut us out of her life along with all of the McGuire family well.. the majority anyway, and now is living her adult life and trying to figure out the in's and out's I guess! Teenagers I think feel they need to explore, you just don't want the exploring to be a negative one! Well she will learn and find her own way one day - I pray!!!!!

I am getting ready to go up to the palouse divide lodge and go scrapbooking for the weekend and soooo excited!!! Then when I get back I will leave and take my grandparents to Spokane Wednesday for my Grandpa is having surgery on Thursday so please keep him in your PRAYERS!!! I also need to just make it without being too stressed out I tend to try and carry things around I have no business carrying in the first place, that is GOD's job not mine! I will sign in again and sooner rather than later so I will get the hang of this blog stuff!!!

March is a wirlwind!

I can't believe how fast March is flying by not to mention all of the months, soon Alissa will be graduating from highschool and adventuring back to New Jersey! This is going to be a very tough time for all of us, her new family here has grown and grown! They seem to know each other like they have known her from birth! I am so blessed to have had this opportunity to be a Mom! I haven't had her in my womb, but she has given me such a wonderful blessing a daughter, one whom I am very proud to call MY Daughter! Every day has been challenging and a learning experience to say the least! I just want her to always know she has me as her Mom and her friend! I have learned so much about her and still learning more each and every day! Maybe she will get to New Jersey and decide it really isn't what she wanted and will come running back, that is definately my selfish wish!
I had a wonderful weekend from scapbooking with her to highlighting her hair I just love doing that with her!!!!!! I love her so very much and I will miss her like I never thought I could... I will not focus on that I will enjoy the time we have and make lots of other memories!!!!

Cleaning...and such!

Well it's been kinda nice today to have the house to myself and clean to my hearts content! There's just one thing, well... a couple! I have these 3 lovely dogs who i adore to the fullest, i must add! Well lets just say it makes it quite challenging with a 3 mo. puppy, lol.... I was finding myself picking up socks that were scattered throughout the living room wowza looked like the sock fairy came and dumped a load on my floor! I was thinking wow i am certainly a messy marvin! Well i went about my business picking them up dumping them in the hamper! closed the door and went about my business only to discover the same socks were strung around the living room again I was starting to think hmmmm I thought i just picked this sock up! Ok this happended 3-4 more times then finally i picked up on it that i must have a little sock theif running around the joint stealing my socks out of the bedroom and stringing around the living room! I thought it was kinda funny a little 3 mo. old puppy sure isnt doing this on purpose to cause me more work now would she..... I am cleaning dusting tidying up the living room when i step quite hard with my BARE foot in a puddle of puppy pee yeah thats right a puddle it splattered everywhere including up my leg! mmmhmmmm YES UP MY LEG!!!! YUCKKKKK!
Well shower here I come!!!!! You should see the little sweet innocent puppy sophie she is sleeping like an angel.. Of course she has emptied her bladder and chewed enough on my socks that she must be a little tired! he he he heehe

Hello World

Hello world! It was a wonderful day, work went smoothly so that is always good!!! I can appreciate that very much and Thank the Lord for my answered prayer for today! What a challenge it can be... So much going on, with Alissa's graduation coming up boo hooo hooo! Wish she would stay here and go to college instead of going back to Jersey. Well one can never tell what the future does hold.

Off to eat dinner and work out!!